I need a hobby
And a few side quests
I’ve come to the conclusion I need a hobby. Something I can spend hours focusing on.
Maybe writing?
It was yoga but even my back can only stretch but so much after being injured.
But where did this come from?
Being overly obsessed with someone who’s not the same about me.
Of course
Being in love with someone who’s is afraid of being in love because they were hurt. Someone who’s wants you to be chalant but they are melancholy them selves.
But trying and then realized shit maybe I need to be doing something else with my hands.
Learn a language, get back to the piano. Create content. Pick up a client. Run away to a project.
LEAVE is my usual answer! Just got and a hobby will always find me. But now I’m not interested in leaving him. Ugh who and I?!?
I need a beach. A surf Trip. A distraction from this relationship that feels Iike a fever dream.